It was clear skies last night, so I was able to view the lunar eclipse. A glorious sight! I’ve stolen the photo from the Facebook event page, http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=19232260290&ref=nf, since I don’t have a fancy camera of my own to take photos with.
In the olden days, the lunar eclipse was taken as an omen, usually evil/bad/disastrous. I wonder what they would make of it now, with the current state of the world? Would in predict impending doom? 🙂
I have been visiting the ‘rents and attending my first ever scientific conference. The Alberta Soil Science Workshop has been interesting so far. My brain is full! Combined with a trip to the museum over the weekend, I have a lot to think about.
The museum had a display about wild Alberta. I really enjoyed this – many of the organisms we studied last semester were featured (so I could exclaim and say I know this!), and they had live fish aquariums as well. This reminded me of how much I enjoyed learning about animals when I was younger. Later thoughts also brought to mind my love of the outdoors and my desire to learn more ‘outdoorsy’ skills.
The first speaker at the conference, William Rees, spoke about our ecological footprint (he is originator of the eco-footprint analysis idea), and this got me all fired up about thinking wholistically. Our society, indeed our cultural mythology, thinks of nature/wilderness as infinite and always there. Or at least this is how business thinks. The average person recognizes that this is not so. I really would like to change that corporate culture. Further talks this morning strengthened this thought pattern – discussion on soil biodiversity, land use, and water use.
Primarily I think this experience has been helping me narrow down the direction I want to go in. What is my True Heart’s Desire? What do I want for the Future? Where do I want to go? And something that DC asked me when talking with him about the two streams has been percolating at the back of my mind. He asked if I wanted to look at reclamation/remediation from an ecological point of view (a whole, broad view), or do I want to concern myself with the finer details (minutiae). And I find myself leaning strongly towards the whole, ecological point of view. This makes much more sense when including my personal world view that everything is connected and we cannot separate ourselves from nature. We are part of nature, not humans above nature. We might be the most successful predator, but we are also the most successful parasite. I think this means I will be changing my mind.
In order to fully informed, I think I also need to look at what the U has to offer. I expect to take RR and come back to take a third year for En’tal. But I am not certain I’ll have the money to make this work. We shall see. But it will also be worthwhile to investigate what I could do at the U with my previous education. An after degree in botany, ecology, reclamation, that sort of thing. A perpetual student. Who needs to win the lotto if that’s what her career path will be.
There are 2 ways of spreading the light:
to be the candle, or the mirror that reflects it.
ST wasn’t feeling well today, so she left after the quiz. Which meant FN and I were left behind to do the cat dissection on our own. She wasn’t up for it, but I thought I better at least try. Which is a bit of a turnaround from my post of before.
With all the drama around choosing the stream for next year, I’ve been trying to open up to the idea of further dissections. If I want to challenge myself, I need to push my boundaries a little. This does not mean I cannot be respectful around our cats, and treat their death (and contribution to my knowledge) accordingly. So I opted to try the dissection myself today. It went better than I expected – mostly because the skinning had already been done. But our cat also has a very large bruise on her side – likely the reason she died. That was a little tricky to work around. And then I needed to cut through some of the muscle sheaths, and the muscles themselves. Since I wasn’t sure if I was doing it correctly, and because I was feeing a little grossed out, I decided not to continue. I am very proud of myself for trying. But I don’t know if I’ll try again.
I am not sure if I am disappointed or not at the fact that it is getting easier. In some ways I wish it wouldn’t – I become desensitized and am no longer as concerned. I don’t wish for death to become commonplace, or for a lack of respect to enter in. We shall see how things continue.
You do not know what wars are going on down there where the spirit meets the bone. ~ Miller Williams
My whole plan to be a daily blogger and to work on my daily practice failed miserably. I was waylaid by a nasty, nasty cold, and the plan fell by the way-side.
Now I am better, I’ve had my first day back at classes, and I am ready to tackle things today. I even stopped by the pet store and bought a plecostamous for the fish tank, so that it might tackle the algae problem.
Tomorrow we are supposed to choose the stream we wish to enter next year. I have been wavering between two choices since the middle of our first semester. On the surface, I want to take En’tal. It offers most of the courses I seem to want. It seems better tailored to my goals for the future. But if I talk to some of my teachers, they also suggest Renewable (partly because they teach RR). It offers a wholistic approach, more botany, more field experience, and has a bit more flexibility for the future. The more I talk with my teachers, the more I am confused.
I mention this to my roommate, who is a smart witch, and suggests I toss a coin, or request a tarot reading from our other roommate. I’ve sent an email saying such. And the coin toss came back with a tails – En’tal.
While pausing in my ruminations for this post, I went to have supper. I came back with a full water bottle and made a phone call. The full water bottle leaked to half – making my bed quite wet, and some notes quite soggy. This made me think of Froud’s Faeries. They too got wet once, and a friend suggested that the Faeries were trying to tell me something, and that it was probably Mickle & Muckle at work. So this evening, I decided the Faeries were clamouring for attention with the big puddle on the bed. I’ve got to have a little meeting with them.
My roommie also asked, what does your True Heart say? I am not sure. It depends on how deep I go to look at my True Heart. I am influenced by my desire to please, and be near, one of my favourite teachers. I would like to continue learning from him. But is that my True Heart’s Desire? Or is that the superficial?
Would I like the opportunity to try something outside of my comfort zone? If so, that would be RR. Camping, using vehicles and machines, being outside, these are all things that sound enjoyable, but I have little experience in. This makes me think I should go with En’tal, because that is the familiar. Or, the other voice speaks up and says, do something different, go with RR.
The more I type, the more I can convince myself of one way or the other. My True Heart’s Desire is to take both, but I won’t have the money for both.
Well, I shall sleep on it. Or rather, talk to the Faeries first, then sleep on it.
Deciding one’s future is a troublesome business.
A man sooner or later discovers that he is the master-gardener of his soul, the director of his life. ~James Allen