I am just now thinking about a way to bring my spiritual life into a daily practice.
I use the computer every day. (With the exception of random camping trips.)
So why not do some writing every day? Bring spiritual language into my life daily?
Something to ponder between now and solstice.
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the dark is not radiant tonight.
rather, it is that darkness that has edges, rough but sharp. pitfalls to trip up on. surprises down the path of my thoughts where i did not expect them to go. not good surprises either.
for some reason the anxiety I have been experiencing took me to a place where i thought about cutting myself. except that it wouldn’t be ‘across the tracks’ but ‘down the road’ in the way of ‘serious’ people. not directly in the living river. just beside it maybe. or up higher where i can hide it better. cover it up with my short sleeves now that warm weather is here. and if I should come too close to the living river, and someone should try to fix it, they will call it the typical cry for help. but it’s not a cry for help. it’s an indication that an end is wanted. I just want this current state to end. i want to move on to the next bit. there is no room for me here. i don’t fit in anyone’s life anywhere. even my makers….they have their own life now.
i want to try it. i want to get up right now, put aside the computer, and find my good knife. i want to make the incision and feel the pain and watch the living river flow. then bind it up well, and hide it underneath my daily disguise. just another part of the inner court that no one knows.
and then i think…shouldn’t i be worried? shouldn’t I feel upset that I think these thoughts?
a heart filled with love
is like a phoenix
that no cage can imprison
Something that is quite inspiring…
The little things are the big things.
It is never being too old to hold hands.
It is remembering to say I love you at least once a day.
It is never going to sleep angry.
It is at no time taking the other for granted: the courtship should not end with the honeymoon; it should continue through all the years.
It is having a mutual sense of values and common objectives.
It is standing together facing the world.
It is forming a circle of love that gathers in the whole family.
it is doing things for each other, not in the attitude of duty or sacrifice, but in the spirit of joy.
It is speaking words of appreciation and demonstrating gratitude in thoughtful ways.
It is not expecting the husband to wear a halo or the wife to have wings of an angel.
It is not looking for perfection in each other.
It is cultivating flexibility, patience, understanding, and a sense of humour.
It is having the capacity to forgive and forget.
It is giving each other an atmosphere in which each can grow.
It is finding room for the things of the spirit.
It is a common search for the good and the beautiful.
It is establishing a relationship in which the independence is equal, dependence is mutual and the obligation is reciprocal.
It is not only marrying the right partner, it is being the right partner.
~Wilfred Arlan Peterson (1900-1995)
I have recently moved to a new part of the province. I was browsing the WitchVox listings just for funsies, and thought about creating a profile to find other like minded pagans. But then I thought – I can’t use my mundane name! I need something with pizzaz! Something that indicates my witchy nature! So I decided to try a few Pagan Name Generators.
Here are the results:
Rowan Avalon Elder
from: http://www.fjordstone.com/fjo/generator.html
Sapphire FlowingSpirit
from: http://www.pythorium.com/pagan_name_generator
Ivy Whisper
from http://www.enchantedrealm.ca/pagan-name-generator.asp
WaterCloud BearCrow EarthBlue
from http://www.geocities.com/Athens/Ithaca/7746/Humor/NIRPNG.html
FireHawk Yggdrasil
from: http://www.newmoon.uk.com/wicca/name.html
Chartreuse Mintseason
http://buggsy97.tripod.com/wiccagen.html
Fun Times!
I used a journal by Cheryl Thiele for a couple of years, called Sacred Journey. She had some prompts inside for writing, one of them entitled the creed of my sacred journey. As one of my mentors, Grant MacEwan, wrote his own creed, I decided I’d give it a go. I think this is relevant to the current discussion in the blogosphere on Pagan Values.
The Creed of My Sacred Journey
All Life is Sacred. Each Life form on Earth has their own essential role to fill, and we are all Interconnected; all Life should exist in community.
Divinity is Immanent. Every person can connect to the Spirit that unites all Life. Some call it the Holy Spirit, the Force, Universal Energy; I choose to refer to it as Spirit.
Know Thyself – if I know myself, I will know god. When I am true to my sense of Self, unwavering and steadfast in the face of challenge, I can offer more to the world.
Act Responsibly and be Considerate of others. It is important to look after my own needs and desires, but not at the cost of another’s feelings or safety.
Speak Truth – wherever I may be, whatever I am doing. Use honesty, compassion, and respect when dealing with others.
There are many Paths to Spirit. Any one Path is not suitable for everyone; I have chosen my own Path, and must be tolerant of others.
Use Wisdom and Reason to discern Truth. Always ask questions, and pursue lifelong learning.
Strive for Balance; Moderation in all Things. Our consumerist and materialist society encourages waste and greed, and this greatly upsets the Balance of the Earth. We take but do not give back. I hope that in striving for Balance, I can temper the dualities at work.
Exercise Love whenever I can. Love and accept all parts of myself, and give my love with an open heart. Do not deny beauty, joy, laughter, pleasure, or happiness in any form.
I believe in Mystery. I believe that neither religion nor science is infallible – there is too much that cannot be known, and that I am not ready to know. Energy is always shifting, creating Change in the Universe.
~April 20, 2005.
Daily Harvest for 5/20/2008:
The world needs dreamers and the world needs doers. But above all, the world needs dreamers who do. ~Sarah Ban Breathnach
One of my favourites, and part of the signature on my email. I aspire to be a dreamer who does.
“Beannachd Dia dhuit”
(Blessings of God be with you – Scots Gaelic)
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A Gaelic Poem –
Deep peace of the running wave to you,
Of water flowing, rising and falling,
Sometimes advancing, sometimes receding.
May the stream of your life flow unimpeded!
Deep peace of the running wave to you!
Deep peace of the flowing air to you,
Which fans your face on a sultry day,
The air which you breathe deeply, rhythmically,
Which imparts to you energy, consciousness, life.
Deep peace of the flowing air to you!
Deep peace of the quiet earth to you,
Who, herself unmoving, harbors the movements
And facilitates the life of the ten thousand creatures.
While resting contented, stable, tranquil.
Deep peace of the quiet earth to you!
Deep peace of the shining stars to you,
Which stay invisible till darkness falls
And discloses their pure and shining presence
Beaming down in compassion on our turning world.
Deep peace of the shining stars to you!
People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in their true beauty is revealed only if there is light from within. ~Elisabeth Kübler-Ross
in honour of dear Brenda, walking the Camino in Spain. Her light is a beacon, shining from within, drawing us to see her beauty.
I was daydreaming on Thursday night, when I was supposed to be studying for my last midterm. I went through the DreamWeaving website, and felt a profound desire to attend this witchcamp. What could be more timely right now than attending a witchcamp whose theme is “Priestessing the Earth”? I am going to school for a similar yet secular theme. What a perfect opportunity to integrate my academia and my spirituality!
Of course, this is all wishful thinking on my part. I am a student, up to her slender neck in debt already. How can I even be thinking about such an expensive holiday? when I don’t even have a summer job lined up yet?
Because I have a great credit card! 
But as my mother’s voice sounds in my head, you still have to pay it back. Or, you are spending money that you don’t have. And then there is the fact that I need to apply for a new passport, as mine expired three years ago.
But Younger Self really wants this. Talking Self does too. Does that mean it is my True Heart’s Desire? Or just my id, wanting, wanting, wanting?
